Hello, my name is Siang Er. I'm 16 this year (2010), my birthday is on 3rd Feb. I am extremely shy when i meet people. But once you get to know me, you'll think i'm nuts :D My favourite colour is blue, any shades of blue, but i hate navy blue. My facebook
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Reading an article about " 10 Signs You May Be in an Emotionally Abusive Relationship " and I realized, my previous relationship had all 10 signs. I guess you didn't know what you were doing to me huh. How blind was I to not see anything. One thing's for sure thought, I will never be the same again. 

 An abuser is a grand manipulator and will sulk, threaten to leave, and emotionally punish you for not going along with his or her idea of how things should be.  An abuser will try to make you feel guilty any time you exert your will and assert what is right for you.  At times the abuser may appear to be apologetic and loving but his "remorse" doesn't last long; the abuse begins again when the abuser feels he or she has you back.

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" Sometimes I wish, i never felt the influence of you. 
Cause now I feel a disconnect, like an open wound.
Where you once were, there is a stain that run as deep as hell.
But every morning when I wake up I tell myself. 
Don't be fooled by your emptiness, there's so much more room for happiness. "
" You didn't love her, because you don't destroy the person that you love. "
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"Nothing is impossible & never give up." - life motto

"Only the shallow know themselves." - Oscar Wilde

"You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life." - Winston Churchill

"Moments, that's all you get with the people you love" - Grey's Anatomy

"The thing about love, is I never saw it coming"
Marie Digby, Say it Again

"Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for." -Bob Marley

‎"Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it's not because they enjoy solitude. It's because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them." 
— Jodi Picoult

“The world today doesn’t make sense, so why should I paint pictures that do?”
- Pablo Picasso

" Burke was... he took something from me. He took little pieces of me - little pieces over time, so small I didn't even notice, you know He wanted me to be something I wasn't, and I made myself into what he wanted. One day I was me, Cristina Yang, and then suddenly I was lying for him, and jeopardizing my career, and agreeing to be married and wearing a ring, and being a bride. Until I was standing there in a wedding dress with no eyebrows, and I wasn't Cristina Yang anymore. And even then, I would've married him. I would have. I lost myself for a long time, and now that I'm finally me again, I can't. I love you. I love you more than I loved Burke. I love you. And that scares the crap out of me, because when you asked me to ignore Teddy's page, you took a piece of me, and I let you. And that will never happen again. " -Dr. Cristina Yang, Grey's Anatomy back to top?

It hits you like a wave. This is going to be a long long ride till I get back onto my own two feet and to be able to smile happily with my heart free from pain. At this stage, I'm just right here. Depression. It kills you, eats you and spits you back out to the world. Pushing you further without any instruction manual to tell you what to do, yet we keep on going. back to top?

Letting go of someone special is hard but holding on to someone who doesn’t even feel the same is much harder.

It’s amazing how you meet millions of people in your life, but only one changes everything and turns your world upside down.

-LetsFuckItUp Tweets.

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This is tough, it's not easy to get over someone who made your life so special. I wonder how is it so easy for you? I wonder...am I just another ex in your life...? :/ back to top?

I only wish for your happiness. So, I'm doing this to myself, knowing you'll feel better. :) I'll love you forever

I watch Superman fly away
You've got a busy day today.
Go save the world
I'll be around.
I watch superman fly away
Come back I'll be with you someday.
I'll be right here on the ground
When you come back down. "And I hope you don't save some other girl
Don't forget, don't forget about me.
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Finally, its out. He has no feelings for me anymore. back to top?

"I'm sorry if I broke your heart"

Hahahhahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahaha. back to top?

I understand that he has stress and is really busy. So..maybe being distant and just being friends could be the right thing for him at the moment. I totally understand. I just hope this decision he chose is the right one that could relieve him from stress. ): Am I the one causing him the stress? I hope not. So yeah, we're just being friends now. Till after my SPM. Hopefully, he won't forget me till that time comes. back to top?

Lesson of the day : Understand your bf, and not go into a emotional state, that's just ridiculous. ( Myself ) :D back to top?

Oh oh suppose you'll never know. back to top?

Gotta post this when I'm happy. Gotta remind myself. To control my mind and emotions. Keep everything intact. :) back to top?

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i miss how you always made time for me. back to top?